Okay. This may seem like an odd post for some of you if you don’t know me from like 2 years ago, but…
I used to LOVE mori girl. Dressed in it everyday. Some of you may know my blog Cats In Straw Hats, where I would post outfit shots, crafts and anything relating to mori girls/mori.
If you note, that blog hasn’t been updated since February last year. New people and older friends still follow it, and for that I am beyond grateful, and I apologise wholeheartedly for not updating it in more than a year.
I went to Japan and was expecting to continue my blogging from there, however I had very little access to the internet for the first couple of months. But in all honesty, I stopped updating because I fell out with the fashion. Although I was 18/19 in Japan, I was essentially living the life of a 15 year old. And for some reason, I felt the need to make sure people knew that I wasn’t a 15 year old. Petty, I know. Hence, I changed my style significantly, sent my clothing back home from Japan and sought to start anew.
Since I’ve come back, I’ve dabbled over the thought of selling my clothes. Before coming back home for the holidays, I was sure that I would- setting up online stores and making a mental inventory of what I had to sell. But when I came home, and saw the clothes again, I just couldn’t do it.
I’ve also put on weight since coming back and have had a few moments of self-appearance despair, which has made me want to fall back into mori fashion. It makes me feel comfortable. Not just physically, but mentally. Last night I put some outfits together, and I felt really happy.
In reality though, I know I won’t wear mori everyday. Part of me still retains the idea that mori is childish- a thought that is childish in itself! Also, all of my clothing at my university hall (dorm) is different, and I don’t really have the ability to bring them back with me. I also feel rather self conscious if I start dressing differently at uni- like there’s an already established ‘me’ there.
However, what I really wanted to get out of this is to say that during the university breaks, I will attempt to update my blog. I feel that mori has become too important to me to give that up.
Also, I want to ask- has anyone else experienced this kind of ‘falling out’ with a subculture (whether it be lolita, mori or otherwise)?
Sorry if this clogs up your dash, I just really needed to get this out in the open.